“The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift.” – Albert Einstein
My heart urges me to retreat. To reflect, to go inward, to seek privacy.
After a recent painful realization, I’ve admitted to myself what is not working in terms of my business and my time and what is working.
What hasn’t been working these last few years? This blog and Instagram.
I’ve been consistent at this editorial schedule, posting frequently, sharing my heart and soul, and sharing my work. And while I have loved documenting this journey over the past 3 years and don’t at regret the time I’m put into it, I have also taken a hard look at my numbers and admitted to myself…that I am not reaping from the effort. The blog isn’t sustainable and the time I’ve poured into it isn’t leading to results.
We have a limited amount of time, money and resources. Some things must go so that I can make room for more of what I do want in my life.
I will now be sharing more “evergreen content” or blog posts that live longer on the internet and are a constant resource for my photography clients. Posts like guides for mom and dad about prepping for portrait sessions, my favorite locations for sessions, sneak peeks at my family and newborn client work, photography tips for new moms, etc.
I will also be placing importance on building my email list and sharing less of me and my personal life online and on social media. I’ll still show up time to time! But I want the focus to be less on me and my personality and more on the joyful and emotional connection of the families I photograph.
I am naturally an open book, someone who wears her heart proudly on her sleeve and loves to share, give, and help in any and every way. But I have noticed my heart and body feeling a bit empty.
I have also been deeply vulnerable online these past two years, and while many people have reached out telling me they enjoy my blog, what I share, etc, etc, I am now seeking more privacy and setting up more boundaries. I am choosing to be more intentional.
There is power in sharing your truth online. People relate to you when you express your vulnerability, your flaws – when you are 100% unapologetically yourself with the online world, as I have been these past years. But there is a line to be drawn. There are many things I have never shared or written about on my blog or Instagram – things that deal with my family life that I choose not to talk about – and I have carefully put barriers up on those topics for they are private. But I seek even more personal contemplation, privacy and less connection with the online world.
I am a simple girl who enjoys reading books, writing letters, snapping Polaroids and spending my days with the natural elements, and I don’t want to remember my twenties as a time I was spent focusing on building a business and social media presence glued to my phone online.
When something great happens in my life – even if it is the smallest thing – I want to share about it with you. I want to share it with the internet world, in order to connect, connect, connect. I deeply love and crave human relationships, and I am always seeking ways to connect with people. But I have been feeling empty, mostly on Instagram, and now seek privacy in my personal and day-to-day life. I feel empty from sharing.
It felt strange last week: not sharing all the things I thought might bring people joy just as it did myself. But it felt so right and true to my internal compass…and also a great reminder to take my personal life off of social media.
I need to retreat, to step back, to look at these decisions I’ve made and intentionally choose a new way of living: without social media and without connecting with others online. I presently seek in-person friendships (despite it being so hard in France), long hugs after saying hello, and people to spend longs hours laughing on the telephone. I want to write more letters to friends, I want more direct, open-book, straight-shooter types like myself. I’ve walked on eggshells for sensitive internet friends, and I’ve never been one to walk on eggshells around people in real life – I am too open and flowy for that.
These are traits that one can only see in person, not on the internet, for the internet masks and filters who a person really is.
If you’ve been following the blog, thank you for reading. I’ll continue to share my portrait photography work and a few of my travel photos.
I am looking forward to the new chapter.
June 27, 2019
2016 - 2019 Helena Woods | Helena Woods Portraiture is located outside New York City in Fairfield County Connecticut and travels worldwide for her clients. Helena Woods is New England and Connecticut’s premier family, children, baby and newborn photographer specializing in modern classic custom family photography with a timeless look that's always in style. As a professional photographer, Helena captures maternity, newborn, baby and family portraits in NYC, Westchester, Trumbull, Easton, Weston, and Westport, Greenwich, Darien, Westport, Norfolk and all Fairfield County surrounding areas.